updatE after a millioN yeaRz

im back!
LOL~ wth i noe la.. din update a mil years ago
so here it is! yay much?!
as if u guys give a D***
=.=


(another pointless post)


hmm.. today during sejarah, i was like.. sleeping the whole period
and i was suprised nobody cared !
i tot teacher wil wake me up
but i was awake by mak yee leng (i think) shout , or stg likdat..
den vanisha asked me wat happened to me
... i jz made tis crying face (jokingly) so she jz continued her stuff
... i think, tat, maybe.. the anser to her question was HEARTBROKEN
..well, i hope not.


(another emo post)


so.. ya. ill stop it wif the emo-ness


HEY! i don even noe my eng marks and position in class
sux rite?
sobz.. i noe T_T
aihs.. don care laa
sure 40/41 de
tak peduli dah~
i dah biasa pun!



haha~ watch dis yo!
my fav~ smosh!
deng! anthony looks so "adam lambert-ish"
haha~ bt i stil love him!


PEOPLE!
i jz wana say!
i love him. i noe u do too.
haiz.




~~ later tat evening ~~
yer. all he said was "?" and "OIC"
hah?!
i duwan chat wif him liao. so stinks bomb one! (learnt fr shumi)
=(
stupid guy!
cheh.. suan lo. promise duwan chat wif him liao
- jie say he nt leng zai -
reli?
=.=
she who aso nt leng zai de la
oni leehom is =P
aihhh!!!

*sigh*
xoxo (my new stylr of ending a post. sure write halfway, forget write liao de.. u all c laa.. when i wil stop using this "XOXO" or shud i say FORGET!!)

hearts desirE

emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo
emo

=( im currenly addicted to rain's LOVE STORY =]
cz. its suits my feelings so so much =]
from starting. until now.
was exited. now trying to pull myself out =[

okay. listen
oh baby~there's something tat i hav to tell u `bout
Can't hold it in my heart , All this pain is breakin me down
Thou i found my one true love , Couldnt show u how i feel
I was stupid baby my pride.. Wouldnt let me be real
im asking for 1 more chance


Didin't noe wher u stand , Or wat yr feelings demanded fr me
I pleaded tat yr love would'nt pass
You left me out in the rain, When u jz walked away
This song is a story , Of a true tragedy
I gave up my heart, I tried to give u all of me
We've come to the ending somehow, I dont know wat to do
but i don wana forget now..


I love u baby i still love u
This is the sound of Honesty


We were so much in love, Tell me how could u forget
Wish u were here wif me but, Memories are all i have left
It seems the promises, That u made to me were nothing
Baby gimme yr hand, So we can both understand dis love
All the pieces of my soul want to live in your Heart

..
...
....
.........

Gotta close the door, Just like what u did before
See my heart is broken, Baby i cant do it no more
Even thou it hurts, I'll make a brand new start
And lay the moments tat played wif my heart
But just before i do, I gota let u noe tat
No woman will love u more, So baby never forget
.. im without u
All i noe tat right now. I LOVE U AND I'LL ALWAYS LOVE U








...baby pls come bak to me
dis is for u =]

sgywsg

"When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'


This is beautiful! Try not to cry.


She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?'

The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?'

The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through hi s thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will he lp some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending m ost of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight wh en Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't al lowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one els e can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me. "

hOLidAE~~

-.-
its over ..
JUZ LIKDAT~~
so fast thursday..
2moro friday..
SAT~SUN..
POOF! gone
=]
but think on the bright side people!!
MY BITHDAY IS COMING.. hohohohhohohohoho~~



COUNTDOWN TO MY!! BIRTHDAY .. XD
24 more days

sHoRt pOsT

here's stg funii that happen in tuition recently =x

BOY A & BOY B makes a lot of noise while my INDIAN tuition teacher gettin pissed.

TEACHER = OK, so wat do we do next after pouring some alkali solution?
BOY A = owh~ after that, WE PLAY SEX

*LAUGHT LIKE CRAP*

TEACHER = Oi stupid monkeys ! shut up and listen !!
BOY B = wat monkeys?! we don hav tails laa!!
TEACHER = GOT!! neh~the tiny and small short thing infront ther??
BOY A = sohai ar?! kong ngor lan sai ?! mei sei gor (say my dick small?! din die b4?!)
BOY B = ahhh~ya la ya la~ yrs black and big la =.=



LOL~ i tell u during science tuition.. THE FUNNIEST THINGS CAN ALWAYS HAPPEN MAN! xD
lazy update
Zzz

All im feeling rite now. is quite eMo
-,-
T___T
no news from him er
continue likdat i give up on him !!
tired of waiting..
haizz



--- TERMINATED ---

pAiShEh

FREAK SHOW , PEOPLE!!
pui yen is under...
EMBARASSED mode..
crap~
crap~
crap
CRAP!!


her crush noe that she likes him.. not only that~~
1) crush obvously wun like her
2) crush is too hot 4 her
3) crush "KINDAA" avoidin her
4) thanks to mr *SOME1* for tellin
5) not only crush noe.. WHOLE 4 TEK 2 knows..
6) I HAVE TO PLACE HIDE FACE..DAMN IT!


now, not only 4T2 noes.. even 2E noes.. IS MY LIFE RUINED OR WAT~~ ma de..
T___T
pui yen is TERMINATED by .. yes la !! that big mouth freak boy.. haih~ i trusted him, but he go tell every1.. LALALAL~ im jz gona tipu myself.. NOBODI NOES~LALALALA ... arghhhhh !!


well, today was a nice day.. cz alot teachers din come, i'll jz forget bout that bitchy sej teacher.. *FORGET WAT HAPPEN,FORGET!!* ok~ so.. today.. while havin BC - IM SO GALD THE DAMN TEACHER DIED AND DIN COME SKUL~~YAY~~~ .. ok ~ me and belle was like talkin bout PRIMARY SKUL DAYS when we suddenly saw KELVIN YONG showing his ass to TUNG WENG WAH while standin.. then belle was like..

she = weih~ wtf! look at them weii. look like...............
me = oh fuck !!! XD~~
*den bursts out laughing until whole face red bout 5 min.. XD~*

dey actually look like.. 1 guy showing his ass and waiting to kena fuck..cuz he was like half body lying on the table..but ass showing to TWW~ den TWW was like facing him ma.. was like .. ROFLMAO~ haha .. den... lets move on.. to the last subject, KH~~ pn chong sudah mati aso.. din come to skul..? XD.. sory, jkjk.. den we were left sittin outside the B. jahitan .. lol~ den suddenly saw ENEMY NUM. 1 >> LIEW XIN YU.. nooby guy den kept callin him noob, now he's gona be so pissed but i dun care.. TEE-HEE.. wateva..

ntg much Zzzz currenly blocked some1 and damn pissed cz that stupid guy go insult my jesse McCartney.. IF YR READIN DIS.. YES I HATE YOU~ U FREAK.. YR 30 SECONDS TO MARS SUX 2.. NOOB! heh! take that u freak ...


all im waiting for rite now is for *crushie aka PXEBC* to forgive me.. and jz treat me as a fren.. soWie ler.. haihYoOOo~ din mean yr reaction likdat ... T___T anyways.. yuP~

..WAITING FOR PETROLSAINS~~~ and hope my van can fetch me bak after tht.. if not i left at skul X ppl fetch..SHIT!
BTW.. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN..
I PRESENT YOU................
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*CLICK FOR BIGGER PICTURE IF YOU CANT SEE~~*
thnx ysabelle for sendin me dis 15% porn pic .. hahahahaha

i dunid u

i felt ashamed of myself


y do i seem like i nid u


i dun nid u


dun think you're damn important to me pls


i wun waste my tears for u


dun act like u damn understand me


i will get on wif life


i will never regret


u dun deserve anything


i shud hav never gav u a chance


im so stupid


after i gav u..


u turn around and din appreciate

y ..
y...
y...
yy... ?!

I HATE YOU..
i treated u like so important..dis is wat u did to me.. y din i c the truth in u ? y had i fell for u? y had i waste my time? y had i take the time to explain to u? y had i liked u? y had i waste my tears? y had i care bout u? y do i waste my mind energy jz to think bout u ? Y?! ...because I LOVE u ... but it doesn't matter anymore.. i tried explaining evertything.. i think you're jz another random playboy, m i rite? sorry..


i should'nt hav wasted my time on u.. im givin up...at last =D

-thnx shaun... =]
i will always rmb wat u've said...



EMO.EMO.EMO.EMO.
X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X ================ X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X~



well.. i had a bad day so..
no mood to post..
but im forcing myself..
and givin a false smile
and i try tp stand alone
dunid him
jz nid you all~=]
try to prove i can get over it
and he's not important
i can survive..
i hav other frens
<3



thnx..
i wana hav a nice sleep now
=]

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yea~ wateva !!

so hows skul today? typical boredom.. haiz.. cant on9 dis few days. ntg special to blog about.. post a betta 1 some day.. not in the mood today haiz..



bcause of "dat"..



still clear in my mind



still rmb it lik it has jz happened..



jz so speechless



and felt so alone



i dono..



how to go thru dis alone..



i cant find help..



onie i can help myself..



life is gettin harder for me..


y ME?!
i jz wana b normal..



lik every1 else..



i jz cant take it....








ANYMORE !!!!